tomorrow, i will go for the turning point meeting of my career (cos i'm reaching mid-30s liao).
and i is worried. why? bcos in the past 10 months in my company, i have become a conformist. i conformed to my company practices, though no matter how hard i tried to break down walls, the walls in front and beside me, are incredibly dense.
i worry the senior person i am meeting tomorrow will see me as a non-motivating person. i have to admit, i have lost some fighting spirit in the last 10 months.
i worry that i will give standard, conforming answers to his questions. i have lost my creativity in the recent days. (the most creative thing i am doing has to be this blog!)
for the sake of tomorrow, i am gathering strength, calling upon my mentor, ex-boss, hr expert, all from my previous company (which although i left due to compelling reasons, was very inspiring in terms of culture and ethics).
i will try, try to break away from these webs that tie me down.
i will break free!!